I understand you are staying with your mother. But you don't just get to choose to be a mom when it's convenient for you.
That is incredibly cruel to these boys.
There's no reason you couldn't have just driven around with them or found a place to hang out with them for free. The library is a great option for that kind of thing.
We're at the point where you haven't been around for most of Aidens life, and that's sad.
I've been doing everything in my power to help you out so you can be in their lives, but at some point, the excuses absolutely HAVE to stop. It becomes more digging to try to find any reason not to see them from my perspective.
I'm not doubting that things are rough. Things are rough for a lot of people. But I know plenty of people who are WAY worse off who would die to spend even 5 minutes with their children given the opportunity.
At this point, you need to step up and be a mom and find the motivation to problem solve how to pick up your portion of the responsibility for your children, decide if you even want the responsibility because truly the one foot in the door and one foot out thing isn't working for anyone, but especially the boys.
I mean all of this as kindly as I can at this point, but I'm at my breaking point with seeing my children heartbroken about their mom.
I do want the absolute best for you, I always have, but it can't be at the detriment of your children and me.